Sophie's real name

Sophie’s real name

 “Not a problem, I can do that, just keep concentrating on my voice OK. I am going to loop my arm in through yours and guide you, just go with me; I promise I won’t lead you into danger.”

I could not really see where I was going as Emmet toed my trembling body through the corridor before swiping his key in the slot of the ECA and heaving the thick heavy door open with one shoulder. The inside of the ECA like always was really stuffy and very dark with only the soft glow of the night light on in there that never went off. It was too hot as well even though it was right In the middle of winter. I guessed all of the padding on the walls was a good insulator for the under floor heating.

I dropped to my hands and knees as soon as I got into the room and crawled over to the far corner that was cast in shadow from the lack of light until someone in CCTV hit the button and bright light bounced off of the grey foam walls in all directions.

“Who have you got in there with you Emmet; I can’t get a clear enough view with the cameras.” I jumped into the air and onto my feet   as the disembodied voice echoed around the room of the ECA convincing me that I may have lost my mind. I was beginning to regret my choice to ask for the ECA; it felt like I was in a giant cooking pot and they were about to pour in the boiling water.

“It’s Mi, It’s OK I am staying with her.” Emmet spoke back coolie to the voice meaning he must have been able to hear it to. I screamed again, pressing my broken finger nails into the foam on the wall and letting the pain swell inside of me until I had to shout with the agony.

“All right darling, this will pass, these feelings can’t last forever and they won’t you just need to ride them out OK. You do what you need to try and gain some control again. If you start to get dangerous towards yourself I will step in and stop you so you haven’t got to worry about anything.”

I started to shout again but was cut off as vomit rose forcefully into my mouth before violently expelling its self into my hands and down over my clothes onto the floor. I through my hand over my mouth as more nausea hit me but could do nothing to bay it back as more acid burst from my mouth and covered me again making me panic and disorientated as it showed no signs of slowing down or stopping.

“All right, it’s OK,” Emmet soothed taking my vomit covered hands away from my mouth and bending me over slightly so I could be sick without getting it everywhere even if it was going onto the floor of the ECA. “I have projectile vomit in her, could you call down and get me some help” he then announced to know one as I threw another mouthful of lumpy orange and green liquid onto the floor.

“Already done it Em, someone is on the way, just hold tight,” The disembodied voice announced.

“You could throw up forever and you would still be fat now Mia. I gave you your chance! I gave you everything I had and you threw it in my face. I could have made everyone like you! I told you that I could have made you perfect and shiny and better and you did this! You did all this to yourself I could have saved you.”

“You killed Bella!” I shrieked at the top of my voice! “You don’t save anyone! You Kill them!  You took a sixteen year olds life and she was perfect! She was better then you! Stronger then you! Prettier then you! You may have the body of a goddess Sophie but you are ugly and you are twisted and you are not my friend! I don’t want you anymore! I want food, and nice hair and good teeth! I don’t need you anymore Anorexia!