I will look after you (Mi's side)

I will look after you

Esmee sighed heavily and walked away from the door hanging her head low before taking her seat back next to my bed, I tried to get just one glimpse of her eyes but she refused to look at me and chose to keep her eyes close to the floor with her face hidden behind her hair; where had the Esmee gone that I loved?

With a sigh smaller to Esmee’s Emmet got off of the side of my bed and took his seat next to hers gently wrapping his fingers through her hands, I noticed that her grip tightened slightly on his, the diamond on her engagement rig sparkling.

My whole body hurt, I had kept her here but she was hardly there any way so the loss still felt as bad as what it would have if she walked away from me; it was like living with her ghost.

Defeated I gave up and pulled the blankets up over my head and wept turning my back on Emmet and Esmee. I had really done it this time when trying to lose my self I had lost every one else and managed to keep my self alive, but what was I with out them?

“Hospital beds have got a lot more comfortable then what they where when I spent my time in them.” Esmee said gently as I felt a weight on the bed next to me and turned around to look pulling the blankets down off of my head to see her lying down net to me kicking her boots off onto the floor.

“And I look ridicules in tights so I am glad you’re not a fan of superman.”

I tried to smile at her joke but I still hurt to much, I wanted nothing more to reach out and hold onto her with all I had left in me but once again it felt like there was a giant ten foot invisible wall in between the person I wanted to be close with and my self.

“Esmee, Esmee can I just pleas give you a cuddle, just once more and then I will never ask again I promise.” I chocked out trying to keep the tears back just enough to keep my voice eligible

“Oh my baby come here.” Esmee soothed turning her body towards me and opening her arms pulling me up close to her.

“Please don’t leave me.” I whispered pressing my self up as close to her as I could manage the tears pouring down over my cheeks. “Please, please don’t go away, I can’t lose you as well” I pleaded squeezing her hands in mine

“Shhh, it’s OK, I’m not going anywhere, I will never leave you, I will never, ever leave you sweet heart, I am going to look after you now, and I am never going to let any one hurt you again, I will protect you.”