(Esmee) i should of come back sooner (Mi's side)

I should of come back sooner.

　

Esmee

“Hi Jasper.” I said nervously as I approached the main nurses desk in the ICU which had Jasper sat behind it hammering at the Keys in exasperation as the ancient PC refused to do what he was asking it to,

“Bloody useless heap of junk!” Jasper grumbled before turning his attention to me.

“Its Esmee bear, I have come to see Mi.” I smiled trying to show some sympathy for his computer predicament.

“Esmee you have no idea how glad I am to see you.” Jasper said sincerely “Mi isn’t doing do well.”

“Wh…what…I mean I thought she was…” I babbled as the cloud of panic came down around me, his words could have meant anything from the fact that she had a miner set back to she was dying and I wasn’t prepared for either. I hadn’t known what I was expecting after a week of not seeing her, maybe the cold shoulder and some lost trust but I had big plans on how to make it up to her but she had to be OK for me to do that she had to be there for me to make it better.

“No, no, it’s nothing like that.” Jasper Quickly continued coming around to my side of the desk and taking hold of my trembling hand in his, “Physically Mi is doing really well, in fact she is so good the doctors are trying to get her moved down to sky light however that isn’t possible right now because emotionally, to be blunt, she is a train wreck,”

“She is really fragile, I agreed sighing wonder how much of the train wreck he was talking about was due to the fact that I had ran out on her and not talked to her for a week. “Could I see her though?

“You can sit with her of course, but she has been sedated.”

“Sedated, what happened?”


“ I wasn’t lying when I said train wreck Esmee, she really is doing badly she has been heavily sedated for the week because whenever she wakes up she just screams we have all tried various ways of trying to talk her down but it doesn’t work, I think she misses you Esmee, maybe you could try, can you sit with her for a bit she will be waking up soon.”

“Of course I can.” I moaned wondering why I had taken so long to come back and see Mi again. I know Emmet had wanted me to take some time out, to let the tablets settle into my system and relax but I could of waited less time then week like a few days; or a few hours.

“She is in the same room, you can go on down, call us if you need anything.”

“Will do” I said smiling sadly at Jasper before making my way down the corridor down to Mi’s room trying not to glance into the other rooms of patients that where more tubes then skin and their visitors who sad holding there hands on the chairs next to them, none of them had given up hope that their relative could get better, none of them had excepted that the end could be minutes away however all of them could be misinformed.

Mi was sleeping peacefully on her back her chest rising and falling on it’s own with easily for the first time in a long time and she looked well. There where still drips handing behind her bed and going in trough her hands but that alone was not a reason to keep her in the ICU, she was ready to leave and would have done if she hadn’t been so hurt she spent all her waking moments screaming.

“oh sweet heart.” I whispered gently smoothing my hand through her before dragging the seat closer to her bed so I could sit holding her hand waiting for her to wake up, “I am so sorry, I should of come back sooner,” I sighed holding my head down low looking at the floor with tears in my eyes, “I should of come back sooner.”