Proud (Mi's side)

Proud

 “I’ve fucked up Esmee.” I whispered turning my face away from hers so I didn’t have to see the disappointment etched upon it. I had let her down again. I kept promising myself that I would get better for her. That I would become whole overnight. That I would become someone that she could turn around to someone else and say “this Is Mi, this is my sister.” Hell I tried hard for that, however I was quickly learning that I would never be that person. I would never be something that she could have any pride in.   

“I didn’t know what else to do.” I admitted feeling uncomfortable with Esmee’s prolonged silence.

“Mi, look at me honey.” I slowly turned my face to look at her. I had been broken before so how much could it hurt? How much could I kid myself?

“You have done amazingly well. You have done exactly the right thing by coming to find a member of staff. I am immensely proud of you sweet heart. ”