Oh great i was wrong, thing so change (Mi's side)

Oh great I was wrong, things do change

I think this chapter is OK but it could be considered graphic so as always safty first please.

Still angry at what I saw I turned around and grabbed my forever growing toiletry bag from the side of my room and walked out the door into the corridor. “Morning Mi” I stopped and span round looking up the corridor into the nurses station and smiled. These where the two voices that I had come to want to here in the morning. Every time they weren’t there I hated it. The trouble was I hated feeling like that. I should not feel that attached to two nurses.

“Emmet, Esmee.” I mumbled just loud enough so they could here me before putting my head down and heading up the corridor into the bathroom.”

“Are you feeling OK Mi?.” Esmee asked

“I’m OK.” I nodded pausing before I went into the bathroom.

“Do you want him or me for breakfast?” Esmee asked again lightly punching Emmet playfully on the side of his arm and unleashing the devastating power of one of her smiles on me so I had no choice other then to smile back at her.

“Like I care.” I said suppressing a laugh before closing the bathroom door behind me and locking the door.

Throwing my toiletry bag down next to the toilet I checked the lock a further two times before using the toilet Of course that was when It happened. When normality had to be shattered into a thousand pieces. There in my underwear and in the toilet bowl was something I had not seen in a long time. Something I never really wanted to see again. They would say this was a good moment but of course I new better. This was a sign that the feeding tube and all the Damn Ensure was doing what they had all wanted it to do. I had lost the controle I had lost the battle. They had made me fat. The red sticky blood that was soaked into my underwear proved that.