blood that ties (Mi's side)

Blood that ties

When I opened my eyes again the room was in darkness apart from a little bedside light beside the bed. I felt out for Esmee but the bed was empty apart from my self which caused the nausea that came with my panic grip at my stomach. I know I was being ultra needy where as before I had never needed any one but for some reason I couldn’t get my head to react in the normal way; it needed someone or something ti keep the darkness at bay.

“Esmee.” I moaned trying to force my eyes to focus in the new gloom of the room, “Esmee, you…”

“I’m here honey, I’m still here.” Esmee said softly rising form a new soft reclining chair in the corner coming of the room. Her eyes looked foggy like she had just woken up too, it seemed wiered that she had been here so long, let alone that she was sleeping on shift.

“There’s no need to be scared, I’m right here.” Esmee whispered gently removing her self from the char and perching on the side of my bed wrapping her fingers through mine.

“What time is it? You must be on the longest shift ever to still be here.” I observed smiling through the pain that breathing still caused me; I wondered exactly how many of my ribs had been broken In the aftermath of me being pulled out of the bath tub.

“I’m not working at the moment honey, I have quite a bit of time off right now, In fact I’m not sure I am going to go back at all. I think I have done to much nursing; I think maybe everyone else was right, I maybe care to much.”

My insides went cold at the thought of what Esmee was saying, apple gate house wit out her would be intolerable, it just wouldn’t work; like buying a car with out an engine, like the human body trying to function with out the heart.

“your kidding right, you can’t stop being a nurse.”

“Yes I can, I didn’t sign a contract in blood or anything.” Esmee said sadly smiling through the blanket of sadness that seemed to cover her since I had woken up; how had I done this to her?

“I don’t care what you signed your contract in, you can’t quit your job!”

“why? Mi I work in apple gat house because I am trying to help people. Not to watch teenagers die in my arms., not to brake all there ribs while trying to keep them alive, I’m not strong enough to do that, I’m not strong enough to lose you.”

“Esmee I am nothing to you, just a fucked up kid in this big fucked up world, you can’t let me change you like that!” I yelled ignoring the pian that tried to burst out through my chest.

“You are so much more then that, you have no idea.” Esmee moaned putting her head in her hands and sighing hard

“No I am not! I am nothing!”

“Stop saying that, you’re my bloody sister!”