the sacrifice (MI's side)

The sacrifice

This contains a graphic account of sexual abuse, take care please

“It started when I was about 10 and they did things to me; painful things; bad things; I think it was sex, I’m not sure but I think it was. He hurt me a lot more then what his fingers did and it lasted longer and he seemed to enjoy it more but I passed out; I think it was the pain and when I came round I was really sick but it made me feel better and it made me feel like I was clean inside again, like he had put something in me and I could get it out just by being sick.”

“Mi I just want to say something, that isn’t sex what you just described; sex can be something amazing; what you just described was rape and child abuse.”


“It wasn’t, I told him he could do it to me, I said I enjoyed it and I said he could keep one doing it. He said if I said no, or wined or cried he would stop everything and he would never touch me again.”

“I don’t believe that Mi and even if he did you where too little to make that choice; it was still wrong.”

“He did Esmee! I swear to god he did! But there was a condition if it wasn’t me it was her. He said if I didn’t she would have to. If I said no A-Bell wouldn’t have a choice; she would have to take my place… I was the sacrifice to keep her safe.”