(Esmee) Those eyes remain the same (Mi's side)

Those eyes remain the same

less then elegantly I clambered through the whole in the hedge to get to where Emmet was ruining the daffodils.
“Ok my love.” I said gently placing my hand on Emmet’s back as he arched his back like a cat trying to expel a fur ball.
“I am sorry I really should of thought about how it would upset you to.” I whispered cringing slightly as Emmet threw up again even though I like Emmet had absolutely no problem when it come to affairs of the human body (Lets face it we are vile creatures really) it hurt me to see him sick. It hurt me to realise exactly how wrapped up in my self I had been. Emmet loved Mi too from the first day he meat her I saw it in his eyes. Mi was one he had to save. Mi was one that he couldn’t let go of. He would of done anything to take her pain away.

“I’m Ok. It isn’t your fault. I thought I would be OK.” Emmet whispered breathlessly straitening up and wiping off his lips with the back of his hand
“No harm done any way. Except maybe to the daffodils.” Emmet corrected. grimacing at the damage to the flowers.

“Come on lets get you back to the car before someone see’s us lurking in the bushes and calls security.” I said laughing unable to help it as I examined the details of his face. I loved every one of those details more then life it’s self. I loved him more then I could every explain. I survived for him. I was still surviving for him.

“She’s very sick Esmee.” Emmet moaned as he clumsily tried to drag him self back through the narrow opening in the bash before turning around and practically lifting me out after him. “Her observations. They are just waiting for her to code again.” Emmet moaned as he wrapped his arm around my waist and started heading back slowly towards the car.

“I saw, but I tried not to. I didn’t want to be her nurse then. I wanted to be someone just to love her. Someone for her to open her eyes for.”

“ She is sitting right on the edge of life. Anything could knock her over.”

“She always has been.” I sighed moving my body in so it was closer to Emmet’s side. “She should have been admitted to the unit long before she was. When they come in that state I wonder where we went wrong.”

“Poor little girl.” Emmet moaned dully holding me tighter to him. “From what I you have heard you say though Esmee you where pretty far gone when you went to the unit.”

“I try not to remember.”


“I am sorry. I just hate to think of you like that. Most kids in there are only like that because someone hurt them. Hurt them badly. You say you where never hurt but sometimes I see it in your eyes.”

I insides screwed into a ball at Emmet’s evaluation. My lips after so may years where still sealed shut. I had never told any one. Not even my husband. Not even my parents. The truth would hurt them too, my life had been destroyed by what happened I would not destroy theirs as well as well.
　
"You see there it is again.” Emmet said interrupting my thoughts as he stopped walking and cupped my face in his hands making my look up into his jade eyes.
I have seen the whole of you change but those eyes remain the same.”