Hero's and Villains (Mi's side)

Hero’s and villains

My mind moved in slow motion as I saw Esmee pull open the door. It must of happened in seconds but my brain turned it into hours. I tried to think of something to say to make her stay but I mostly had to fight with the same urge not to jump off of the bed and try to physically pull her back into the room; if my legs could of managed it I would of, I was prepared to try anything.

“You don’t get to leave!”” I finally shouted the words coming up from somewhere so quickly that I couldn’t stop them. I realised it was a poor argument but it was one, the only one that kept knocking into my head. She didn’t get to save me and then walk away from something I wasn’t aloud to. It was a far to simple thought process to matter in the slightest but for some reason to me it mattered, to me it was at that moment hugely irritating.
“You don’t get to walk away from the shit if I have to stay and live with it. If you where going to give up why did you try and save me, it wasn’t for my benefit surly; I had all ready given up.” I said the strange words tumbling from my mouth even though I tried to choke them back in. The argument was pitiful, there where a million and one batter ways for making her stay.

Esmee hovered at the open door and removed her had from the door handle hovering it jut above and thought. Her hesitation must have been momentary but to me it felt like a long time before she finally sighed heavily loosing some kind of war within her, pressed her eyes shut and closed the door again with her self still inside my room.

“I’m not walking away to give up on you, the only reason I would ever walk away is to save you or make it better for you, I’m not a super hero I’m just a stupid very insignificant human, and as a human sometimes the best thing I can do for someone is to go away. I don’t want to leave Mi I want nothing more then to stay, but if I do and I hurt you that makes me less then human, that make me the villain.”