Smoke and mirrors (Mi's side)

Smoke and mirrors

“Well that seemed intense,” Esmee commented after I led her back to my room and gestured for her to make her self at home which she would have done any way. It seemed so strange that dream had now become my sanctuary where as when I had first arrived it had been my cell. Esmee and Emmet had made it look truly beautiful when they had put all my pictures up and ever since then even though it still screamed NHS in its own way it didn’t matter; it was the best I ever had.

“It was.” I confirmed trying not to look at Esmee even though she was now staring at me with an intent curiosity burning somewhere inside of her.

“You know technically it is against the rules don’t you, for you to have a relationship with Connor” Esmee said even though her face was a warm smile, “However we don’t chose who we fall in love with, sometimes it just happens.”

“Love!” I laughed “People don’t just fall in love Esmee, it was just a stupid kiss and I won’t be doing it again any time soon.” I jibbed verbally poking my self closer and closer to a very flimsy edge that I had always hung so close to. That kiss had been magic and if she had asked me a few seconds after it I would have told her it was unmistakably and unarguably love that had fuelled it but now several minutes had passed it seemed more likely that it was teenage hormones. No one could ever love me and because of that very thought, the thought that I might not ever experience the touch of his lips against mine again I wanted to throw my self off of the edge that was inside my mind.

“People do just fall in love, they really do. Sometimes it is built and made over moths and years and sometimes it is just like magic and you fall in it; like destiny has sent two people crashing into each other.” Esmee smiled warmly her cheeks blushing the perfect shade of red.

“Hopeless romantic,” I moaned

“Maybe your right but that is something I am proud of because at the base of it lies Emmet. We have lived though love at first sight Mi. He found me, he found me when I was broken, he found me on a quite street in the gutter and he could have been any where in the world, or he could of walked right past. His collage class might not have been cancelled or he might have chosen another street to walk up but he didn’t and he found me and he loved me instantly and I loved him. It was like gravity had been pulling us together, knowing that we belonged with each other. I believe in love Mi and I believe in all of its power because I am one of its people; I am one of the people it has changes.”

“It was just a kiss, he wont even remember it tomorrow and neither will I.” I lied truing to get Esmee to stop acting so dreamy. I loved the fact that she was in love and I loved the fact she was in love with Emmet but in a way she was so blinded by it she could make everything a fairy tale. However much that kiss had felt like it had been out of a story book it had not been, if love destiny existed like Esmee said, it existed for the good and I was bad to the bone.

“Ok, but is that what it felt like to you Mi; like nothing?”

I sighed heavily with a pout on my face before answering, “Magic, it felt like magic, it felt like fireworks and I have never felt that way before.”

“So if it felt that good Mi, why do you think it’s nothing?” Esmee asked gently taking one of my hands into hers,

“Because magic is nothing but smoke and mirrors.”