(Esmee) Survive for your self (Mi's side) *edited slightly*

Survive for your self
I smiled gently and closed my eyes breathing in deeply through my nose. Before lifting my hands up and removing his from my face. Holding them down by my sides.

“What do you think it would Change Emmet?” I asked opening my eyes again smiling sadly up into his face. “I would just hurt you, hurt my parents, hut everyone and it was all so long ago why would I say anything?” I asked turning my had still in his to walk towards the car again.

 "You know the answer to that as well as I do.”

“No I don’t. I know why it is important to get a teenager to admit that a member of there family raped them. I know why it is so important to get a chid to admit that there parents are physically abusing them but I have no idea as to why myself, a twenty seven year old women who Is settled into a good job with a good life with a loving husband and an amazing daughter would tell when all I know is whatever I would have to say would hurt them. Emmet not knowing is better.”

“Anyone who ever hurt you need’s to be punished. The rules and the reasons are the same Esmee and even if you did hurt me it wouldn’t matter as long as it got the person in the wrong brought to justice.” Emmet said gently as we got to where his car was parked and he slipped into the passenger side as I swiped his keys from his belt so I could drive. He still looked a little green to be behind the weal.

“I got sick Esmee because she looked exactly like you lying there in that bed.” Emmet said his eyes boring into the side of my face as I tried to stare out of the wind screen ignoring his face;
“Beaten up, broken, barely human under all the machinery that did what your body couldn’t any more. They told me it would be nothing short of a miracle if you made it through the night let alone any longer.The person that hurt you amost killed you by doing what they did. They made you hate your self so much you tried to take your life. That's why they need to be punished. With every suicide there is almost alwyas a murder commeted at the same time." Emmet sighed.

“I am here aren’t I Emmet.” I said stealing a glance over at him before going back to altering the seat so I could actually reach the pedals. His face was still white and drawn out. It seemed by trying to protect him i was hurting him any way.

“I know, you say all the time. You survived for me, and every time all I really want to say is, you need to survive for your self.”