All that which i will never deserv

All that which I will never deserve

Right Mi.” Esmee smiled after she had showed me around the rest of the first floor which included their yellow bedroom with four poster bed, Mi’s nursery that was light pink with white tatty bear nursery equipment including a cot wardrobe and changing table. The cot was designed with pink quilts and bumpers with soft hanging wall art on the light pink walls. It was simply stunning for her and she was spoilt with toys and cuddly toys just as she should be that were packed into white storage cabinets and plastic boxes. The final room was a small box room that was being used as an office.

“You should go upstairs and see your new room I think. I will go down stairs and put the kettle on; I brought your morning snack with me. Do you think you will be able to eat it here?” My stomach flipped. My heart pounding inside my chest again, food had become easier but it still hindered me at times and Esmee and Emmets was not a safe place. “Emmet and I will have something too and mum if you need her too, I’m sure that Mia won’t turn her nose up at a few biscuits either, Esmee smiled.”

“I’ll try.” I gulped brushing my fingers against the varnished banister that I was standing beside.

“Of course you will, now go on then go up there and have a look around. When you’re done we will be downstairs in the kitchen waiting for you.

“What you’re not showing me up there?”

“No you can do it, it’s your room Mi, and it’s your house now you have to start somewhere. You think you can manage this. All you have to do it shout loudly if it gets too much honey. You will be surprised how quickly I can get up those stares.”

“Ok, I’ll go up and take a look,” I smiled gently before turning around and heading up the stairs while Esmee headed back downwards.

My stomach tripped ad stumbled as I headed up the stairs along with my feet. I still felt sick. In reality I didn’t care what the room looked like; I just hoped it wasn’t too good. To be in there house to be destined to be a part of their family was much more then I deserved already I should have died in the gutter. I should have been abused and rapped and then killed my self. That was where I was heading and not here. Emmet and Esmee had saved me. They came into my life like angels and rescued me from the devil and they acted like they were privileged to do it.

Taking a deep breath I rounded the last bend on the stairs and turned right into what must have been my new room. It was paradise. A light shade of purple slid over the clean walls with dark purple swirls stencilled onto the top of it. Brand new light beach wood furniture stood proudly against the walls in pride of place. This wasn’t mentioning the brand new beach wood double bed that sat in the middle of it all just asking to be lied on. Flower petals that looked almost alive where carved into the wood of the bed and dark purple floral bedding draped silkily over the edges.  On the walls pictures of puppies and kittens were hung up in mirrored frames and the name Mi was written over the bed in trendy cloth letters. In one corner a luxury rocking chair waited to be sat in and ion the other a massive book case that already contained several books stood proudly in place next to a giant purple bean bag.

In short it was a princess’s room. It was the glass slipper fitting onto a foot and the taming of a beast stuck in a castle. It was happily ever after, the trouble was I was one of the ugly sisters and I did not deserve it.