Never let you go (Mi's side)

Once again another chapter i am not sure about. Maybe i am feeling to soopy and sentamentl to write good chapters at the moment


Never let you go
“I mean it Emmet I can’t. let me go” I said sinking back down to the floor like I was an infant unable to support my own weight as he tried to place me on my feet in front of him. I didn’t want to stand and fight any more I new I would only get knocked over again I always seemed to land up on my knees.

“Mi, I will never let you go. To many people in this life have given up on you walked out on you and turned there back on you. To many people have abused you and hurt you and raped you.” Emmet said going down on to his knees beside me where he cupped one hand around my cheek, his eyes searching mine looking for something within me that only he new I still had there.

“Please…” I tried to beg but the words come out as nothing more as a whisper in the back of my throat. “Don’t. I’m… I’m not… I’m not strong enough.

“You where just a little girl.” Emmet said softly stroking away yet another two stray tears that had managed to brake over the surface of my eyes. “When the world should have been protecting you from everything and checking for invisible monsters in your closet, they where being the monsters and you learnt to cry and scream all alone because you learnt no matter how hard you cried or no matter how loud you shouted no one would come any way. So you found a better way to get rid of all that anger and confusion you found a way to comfort your self, You found another way to scream and cry and your skin wept silent red tears for every time he did something to your little body that you couldn’t quite understand and you screamed a bright red scream for every time she screamed in your face and you couldn’t scream back at her.

With every one of Emmet’s words it felt like a rocket ripped it’s way through my body destroying every secret and every lie I had ever kept locked up inside braking down every wall I had ever formed to protect me from the world around me. It melted all the icy bits that I had tried to freeze away and breathed life into any part of me that had forgotten how to feel and It hurt. It hurt more then any punch or kick ever had, it hurt more then any insult that ever was thrown at me.

“Stop” I shouted the tears falling out of my eyes in rivers as a hole was broken though in the damn that had built up in my chest. “Please stop i sobbed through hysterical breathing as I wrapped my arms around my chest and stomach trying to stop my insides from falling out. “It hurts! It hurts!”

“I know baby, I know.” soothed bending into me trying to prise my arms away from my chest.

“No, no.! I shouted shaking him off and clamping my arms tighter around my self moving further away from him across the floor.

“No, no, no.” Emmet said again now even more gently as he crossed the distance towards me and once again tried to prise my hands away from my chest.
“You don’t have to do this on your own any more Mi. Come here, come on.”

With that Emmet gave one more tug on my barrier and my arms came away from my chest where he took the opportunity to grab hold of me and scoop my little body up onto his lap where he held onto me tight like the terrified crying child I felt like.