Mi isn't safe (Mi's side)

Mi isn’t safe
I breathed deeply at the oxygen that werled around the mask before finding it’s way into my lungs but still I could not stop the tears. I wasn’t sobbing no more, my body couldn’t produce the sobs with out my head feeling like it was going to rip apart so it simply stopped though I wasn’t ready to give them up completely, I still wanted to scream because at least then it felt like I was rebelling against the depression that was swallowing me whole. At least I was screaming at it to go away.

“Deep breaths.” Ava encouraged gently as she watched my chest rise and fall still to rapidly and effect of the left over crying.
“Try and stay controlled. Ava added going to an almost wired hypnotic softness. Like somehow she was trying to lure me in before she attacked ripping at my flesh with her fingers and tarring me apart. I winced away scratching the mask off of my face so I could curl up with my head tucked in.

“Ava’s safe. Edwards safe, I am safe. Emmet said clumsily inching his way forward closer to me and gently pulling at my scrunched up limbs.
“Remember what I said about barricades.” He whispered again gently stroking my still sweaty hair behind my ear.

“There safe.” I argued

“Who are you scared of Mi?” Emmet asked gently again as he wiped the cold cloth towel back across my hair.
“You know Edward and you know my self well. Is it Ava? You can tell us Ava has worked here long enough not to take it personally."

I nodded slightly not willing to admit the real predator in the room. The one that scared me the most and that was the person curled up in the ball on the mattress. Emmet was right, he was always right, Edward was safe, Ava was safe and so was he but he forgot to mention the one person that I feared the most. Myself.