(Esmee) the tornado (Mi's side)

The tornado

Esmee

I had no Idea what the hell I was doing apart from kissing goodbye to my career if any one found me crying the corner of the room, though saying that I wasn’t sure I cared about that anymore any way. After Mia and Emmet my work was the most important thing to me but Mi seemed to of knocked it flying; like a tornado she had flew though the doors of apple gate house and even before I new we where related I felt something for her that a nurse was not meant to feel for there patients, Love, compassion, warmth and so much more, It seemed stupid to me that a nurse was not aloud to feel those things as in reality that was the whole of are job description, there was nothing else involved we where there to care comfort and keep safe not observe medicate and tackle which if we all worked by the book we would spend the majority of are time doing but hay that was how it was now and maybe I didn’t fit into that, maybe I should of seen my self slipping out of the nursing before but it seemed to be the arrival of Mi that slapped me around the face with the fact I maybe cared to much and I was burning out, Mi made me wonder if I could do it any more; i had had my doubts about my line of work before but they where just niggles however now the seemed to be bigger doubts and impossable to ignore.
 what Mi had done  cut into me and left a hole I didn’t know if I could fill  again let alone be able to get the image of her lifeless body against the lino floor out of my head. It had been a month since the incident when I found her and every night I saw it again bobbing in the front of my memory. Emmet was concerned off course and I lied telling him It was a stupid recurring dream about falling every time I woke up screaming in the middle of the night; not about the death of my only recant discovered half sister; if he did know he would try and pull me away from her but suddenly it didn’t matter how I felt or how I fell down because it all boiled down to one harsh fact, I wasn’t there when she needed someone to protect her from the monsters that she had to face but now I was older and I new how I could i would save her even if saving her killed me.