Little girl Mi (Emmets side)

Little girl Mi



I really didn’t want to leave Esmee and I considered hitting my own RRA for some assistance for Mi so I could stay with her but there was also part of me that wanted to run like the wind to that clinic room and somehow stop that sobbing. Working in the unit for a long time no matter how heard you tried not to you seemed to get immune to different types of crying and shouting’ patients and slip ups and freak outs all the time but this sobbing was something different, maybe because it sounded so immensely child like and would send every parent from miles alone running in that direction as this cry was not a I want some sweets and I can’t get my own way cry but rather a I have fallen off the climbing frame and broke every limb in my body cry; she needed help, she needed comfort, she needed me.

“Use that bloody RRA if you need to!” I shouted behind me to Esmee as I started up the corridor in a run towards the clinic room following the screaming that got louder and more intense every second.

Reaching the clinic room I slammed my body hard up against the fire door and fumbled with my key chain so I could swipe the card and at the same time as shoving in the code and trying to put on a pair of latex gloves. In the end I gave up with the gloves and settled for opening the door and after the this attempt at entering the damn code the locks clicked open and i stumbled in through the door.

Mi was on the floor in a mess of strawberry Ensure screaming at the top of her voice as she scattered the condenses of the sharps box everywhere occasionally trying something sharp up against her arm to make a cut and screaming louder when it didn’t give the effect she desired.

She looked like a child there and then and her scream was off one to too so was her face and her body curled on the floor in the middle trying to find or do anything to make her feel better and if she could see better though her own tears she would find It; centimetres from her left hand I could see one small all ready blood covered straight edge razor.

I had no idea how I was going to stop her as in honesty getting on the floor behind her to restrain was going to be an impossibility unless I wanted a needle stuck up my ass, so I was going to have to try and talk her down though honestly I had no idea how I was going to be able to do that either she seemed to far gone to be talked down; hell I wish Esmee was here she would have managed the impossible.

As Mi’s hands darted to the left of her I new I had to react in seconds because once she found the razor I new she would have no issues in emptying her veins all over the floor right in front of us.

“Come now Mi I said as gently as I could placing one of my hands steadily on her shoulder knowing If she went for the razor blade now I would have half a chance at fighting her for it. “Stop this.”