I am seriously thinking about stopping this don't get me wrong i enjoy it but it has all just ran away a bit, I mean nurses like Emmet and Esmee just don't exsist (In reality they are all like crystal) and i don't think in the entire history of creation there has been any one with as much bad luck as Mi.
I guess i'm just not a very good writer to be honest, i read some other peoples work and feel compleatly rubish mostly.
You have all been so nice to me and i can't beleave it has gone on for as long as it has but lets be honest who am i kidding back at RYL i got some pretty nasty comments one including "some people just can't write" about my stories as well as the good and it had played on my mind ever since i read it and now i am actually seeing where they are coming from. This of course could be becaus i have never had huge amounts of self confadince or it really could have some thruth in it aparatny i have no grasp on the english (spelling and grammer related) lauguage and my storyies don't any character and they are all very sammy been done before. I know these where the comments of a few inderviduels but i can't help see there point. Maybe it is a little boring.
to sum up this story has mosntly just turned into my thearpy even more so with Emmet and Esmee and i am almsot sure if i carry it on i will end up making them mister and misses superman,
I have no idea what to do? Maybe i will feel difrent in a few days? Myabe i am just going down hill again and feeling sorry for my self? Maybe i should book an appointment with my support worker?
Still there is a part of me that doesn't think i will be able to give up writing all together it has meant so much to me and i even started going to a creative writing group on a fri. I never feel as close to something as i do when i am writing and Mi Esmee and Emmet have almost become like real characters in my life. hell i even had to go to A&E with my frien the other day and my friend burst out laughing as she was sure crystal had managed to get her self in my local emergancy room; Now i am not sure if that is just creative or deeply dusterbing.
I want to keep writing this; nothing gives me more of a buzz but i have lost a lot of readers since it removal from RYL and i think that might just be to do woth the quality of the writing going down hill so much ans they same old story line being revisated, maybe i should stop presueing somthiong that is dead and full of so many mestakes and try my hand at something else; maybe some people truly arn't meant to be creative. :-(
well first things first. Don't make a decision for a few days. You do seem down.
ReplyDeleteSeeing your support worker could be a good idea. Id think it would be a good idea.
Dont stress about the spelling and grammar. I have Dyslexia and the first thing i was taught was do not let the difficulties in the English language mask your intellengece. Your spelling and grammar does not effect the reading of the story.
I hate to think that all nurses are like crystal, even if it is made up reading about esmee and emmet gives me hope and im sure that otheres get hope to.
Its been quoted that to lose hope is to lose everything.
I can come here are read something that can give me hope. Yes it does seem that Mi has a lot of problems, but people do have alot of problems, and we should know as well as everyone else how tough mental illness can be. Mi does face alot of real problems. its not an over reaction.
I love to say please dont give it up. But it is totally your choice. Many of us will contiue to tell you, you ARE good at writing- and we do truly beleive that. You have the potential to turn the story of Mi into a book- I do truly beleive that.
But what I know is important, is that if writing is a release for you, if it makes you happy, if it is a big part of you- you should do it. Readers are the added bonus, people move on for way more reasons than because they dont like it. like they lost the address, theyve forgotten about it. Or in my case I dont have internet access anymore due to leaving home and living in the middle of no where (i am currently at my brothers using his.)
I think the sole reason for this comment is: reading that comment made me sad because i can see you reaching out for help. And I can see you are depressed. You are an amaizing writer, and Mi is an amaizing story. But you do need to come first, and that means that I care about what you want vicky and ill be here to support you in anyway i can. Because that what friends do.
email me if you want- Ill try and reply, though most likly only be weekends. melikemidnightsnack@hotmail.com
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If it works like a kind of therapy for you then I think you should keep going (plus I'd be totally bummed if you stopped).
ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't worry about who reads it, who likes it, who says what. Do it for you! And for what it's worth I still read every update :)
You're spelling isn't perfect, but it's a wonderful story in my opinion and it'd be a real shame fore you to stop writing it out of insecurity and/or a few bitchy comments.
all I want to say has already been said.
ReplyDeletePlease keep writing if it helps you.
I'm reading your story and checking for updates every day.
This is helping me a lot, please do not stop writing or I will be sad :( xx
ReplyDeletethanks guys for commenting on this, i think mostly it is just me feeling a little down and having a rant in places where i shouldn't for the time being i can see me contiuing just because i have done another chapter and thought nothing of it and if i am writing then i can't see the point in not posting it.
ReplyDeletebuy the way it is still me Vikki writing this (lost in dreams) but fore some reasion i am unable to comment as me self so i have had to make another account!
thanks Ettie for the idea!
I totally agree with the comments above.
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing writer and I don't believe you should stop because you have said before that writing it here helps you get it out, and any therapy is good therapy in my eyes.
It really is your choice if you stop but maybe bow isn't the right time to decide.
PM me on RYL if you need to, My user name is SavingGrace.
Love and hugs. Stay strong.
Bee. xxx
Totally agree with everything said above. I think you should definetely keep writing for as long as you enjoy it...and I would selfishly hate it if you stopped. I haven't been able to read for ages since I've been using others computers so I'm super excited to catch up :).
ReplyDeleteI don't think your spelling/grammar is really a problem since your writing flows nicely- but if you're worried about it I'm more than happy to help spell check..though I'm sure to miss some errors as well haha.
There really are nurses like Emmett & Esmee out there, which is one of the reasons I love reading about them.
Message me anytime if you want to talk, hope you're doing better. RJxxx