Round two (Emmets side)

Extream trigger but i hope that it is OK i am not sure about it as a chapter. please be extra carefule before reading through i mean it the trigger in this is really bad. I triggered my self writing it so it is heavy.

Round two
“I am sorry that I am hurting you.” I said softly as I gently dabbed at Esmee’s wounds with a piece of gauze and her face flinched.

“You are very gentle.” Esmee smiled trying to mask the expression from her face she didn’t want to hurt me any more today just like I didn’t want to hurt her.

“This one would heal better with stitches.” I said pushing the sides of the wounds together and frowning as the skin parted again when I let go.”

“I know.”

“Your not going to let me drive you to the hospital though are you?” I said frowning again as I dabbed a line of fresh blood away that come from the open wound

“How about no.” She said firmly her eyes going into slits as she scrutinised my face.
“All right, all right miss scary” I said “I will try and hold it with steri-strips. I said smiling as she rearranged her face back to normal rather then a scowl.

“How are you feeling?” I asked this time cautiously as I looked away from her face and concentrated on trying to get the steri-strips to close the wide wound together.

“The original feeling before I did this or now?”

“Both, always both. I want to know everything that goes on it your head but unfortunately I am not a mind reader.”

“Now? I just feel stupid. I hate the fact that I have effectively flushed my recovery away. I hate my self for the fact that not only did I cut my self I cut my self in front of you, that must have been so hard for you to see.”

“It isn’t the easiest thing to watch.” I admitted flinching internally as my mind replayed the image of Esmee pressing the blade into her skin and dragging It back until there where gaping holes in her flesh even worse was the content that registered on her face afterwards. The tranquil calm. Such devastation in my eyes brought her the relief and peace that I couldn’t of gave to her at that stage. I couldn’t make her feel as good as the sharpness of a razor on her skin.

“I am sorry. I really am. I told you to leave. I new it was past the stage of coming back from. I new I was going to cut and I tried to wait until you left the room but I literally couldn’t hold myself there any longer I had to cut and if I was going to have to hurt you to do it I was going to have to so that. I was so desperate for that relief.” Esmee said her breath almost a gasp as her hands clenched up into tight balls and her legs went completely ridged under my hands. Her eyes closed tight as she attacked her bottom lip with her teeth before holding her breath.

I didn’t need to be a mid reader then to see inside Esmee’s head. As to the cause of her sudden stiffness her sudden attack on her lip. It was time for round two but this time I was there and I was going to kick it’s Ass!