(Esmee) I killed her (Mi's sdie)

I killed her

When the taxi reached home I thanked him gave him the ten pound note told him to keep the change and stumbled out the back onto the street. My house was mere steps away from my now. I could see the lights in the downstairs window behind the curtain of the TV where Emmet would still be awake watching any crap that was on while coming up with a cunning plan to murder the more that was back at the unit so we could get a better one.

I wanted to run to the house and jam my key in the front door where I could fall o the floor just inside the front door and scream but my legs would not make the journey any quicker then slowly as all my effort was concentrated on just making them move one in front of the other. So I didn’t fall to the ground where I was.

The walk felt like it took hours where in reality it must have been less then a minute and with my last ounce of effort I turned my key in the door and stumbled inside tripping on the door step where I landed on my front and the tears burst out of there prison where I had tried to keep them locked up where they couldn’t hurt any one but me.

“Esmee! Ez! Esmee what the hell happened!” Emmet shouted flying around the corner of the living room and into the entrance hall where I was lied in a mixed up pile of arms and legs.
“Baby. My sweet heart. What the hell has happened?” Emmet asked frantic pulling my whole body up into his arms. His presence was what I had longed for since I found her. His arms locked around mine and I held on tightly squeezing my whole body as tight and as close as I could to his chest.

“Esmee has someone hurt you? Attacked you because I swear to got I will rip there fucking head off.” Emmet yelled wrapping his arms around me tighter burrowing his head into my hair as he started to rock me.

“I’m fine!” I wailed even though I new it was a stupid thing to say. I wanted to reassure him but every time I opened my mouth to talk all that would come out was the screaming.
“I just. Just sad!” I managed to yell between my discordant sobs. “I, I missed you. I had to come home. I, I had to come home.” I sobbed hard clutching hard onto Emmet s arm with my hand. He was something to hold onto. Something strong and steady in the human hurricane.
“If anything happened to you! If you ever left me!” I stuttered trying hard to catch my breath.

“Shhhh, Shhhh. I’m right here honey I am not going any where. I am right here next to you and I will stay here forever if you need me too. Where would I go with out you my baby. What would I become with out you.”

“Emmet I think she’s dead.” I wept burying my face deeper into his shoulder where my tears made his light gray shirt black.

“Esmee, what’s happened, tell me!” Emmet said firmly shaking my slightly as if to try and tip the answers out of my lips.

“It’s Mi. She drowned her self in the bath and I found her but I was to late. To stop her. I think I killed her Emmet.”